Stepping stones

When we got to the hospital everyone was really friendly. I was with a lot of kids my age who had MAJOR issues. I was given a room with a roommate and that was the first time I had to share a room with a stranger.  I cried myself to sleep that night and was so angry that I was put in a prison when it was my mom who was the crazy one, why was I getting punished.  I never felt so alone in my life and felt like I was abandoned.  Even though I was mad at my mom I also missed her and would cry for her every night.  At the hospital we would have to do group counseling sessions together with all the kids on our floor. I remember being there BORED OUT OF MY MIND (probably like you are reading this blog) and wondering why I had to be there. People were crying and telling us story's of there awful life. I never had anything to say. They would go around in a circle and ask us all to share there feelings. I never would say anything. One day while staring at the ceil...

My grandma, my moms mom was not happy with my unfit mom, she did not want us around and my mom and grandma would fight and I remember the last time I saw my grandma at this time was when my grandma smacked my mom after there yelling match was over.  My mom told me to get in the car and we left.  We would wait until my grandparents were not home and sneak in there house and steal there food, my mom would always take my grandmas mustard pickles and bottle peaches.  I always went for the fruit snacks and candy. We eventually got another apartment and by doing this my mom had to go to the government office and put in for child support and state help.  My dad was so upset that my mom wanted child support, he would ask me to tell my mom not to make them take child support out of his check because it was so much he didn't have any money to live on.  I was so scared for my dad that he didn't have any money so I would get angry at my mom for putting my dad in that si...

Shortly after Christmas was over it was time again when we couldn't pay the rent and had no place to go so we moved to James(stepdad) hometown Redmond, Utah.  We only packed small things like our clothes and my boombox (stereo) because this was all we could fit in our car.  We drove for hours and when we finally got to this little town in the middle of no where we drove straight to a house that was a beautiful brick home build probably 1940s.  James told us it was home for a while so we went inside and it had furniture and beds and pictures on the walls, the only thing it didn't have was electricity.  The people who owned the home was gone for the next 6 months or so, so James decided it was time to move us in some strangers home and they had no idea we were living there.  I remember the room was my favorite it had Vanilla Ice pictures all over the  walls and he was such a babe.  So I was happy with my new home and room, the electricity never was turne...

When the bus pulled into the Salt Lake City bus station my sister picked us up and drove us to my grandmas house.  Part of the deal for my grandparents to buy a ticket was that we lived with them until we got a place to live.  My mom hated the idea but this was our only option at the time.  My mom and I shared a room at my grandparents house and I was enrolled into school.  I liked living with my grandparents I had 3 meals a day and they were always delicious, my grandma was a great cook.  My favorite times were making banana chocolate chip cookies with my grandma.  My least favorite time was hearing my mom complain about how my grandpa and grandma treated her and the things she would say.  My grandma would always talk about my cousins and the sports and activity's they were in and I always felt she loved them most.  Some nights my cousins would sleep over which happened a lot they had a good relationship with grandma.  My grandma...

To cool and so mature to be 11 years old.  When I was 11 years old people thought I was 16 I matured fast and had the cool teenager attitude to go with it I am sure.  I kept my friendship with Brittany who was the prettiest girl in school and then we also made friends with Jenny who was the next prettiest girl in school.  I was the ugly duckling for sure and just following them and started talking like them and trying to copy them as much as possible. They were cool and everyone wanted to be like them.  Well hormones kicked in and they started getting boys attention and we all soon turned into being teenagers.  We would go to the movies and all the boys would flock to them and try to impress them I was the 3rd wheel for sure.  I was the "sister "they all liked me as soon as they got to know me but I wasn't liked the way these girls were liked.  They had many boyfriends and started experimenting with boyfriends and to this day I am glad I was the ugly f...

Well I haven't posted for a while because I am just stuck now, I usually tell people the stories I have already shared but never go on from there in my life history so I am not sure what to tell? So I will pick up from where I left off and go from there so here it goes...... My mom divorced crazy Dave and at the time of the divorce I didn't want to leave southern Utah, so funny because when we moved to southern utah I wanted to move back home to Orem and be with my friends, you know 11 year old girls depend on there friends.  So I complained a lot about tent living, and living with crazy dave and living in southern utah away from my friends.  So when my mom finally got the gumption up to divorce Dave we did not know where to go with our lives from there?  We didn't have family in southern utah and we really didn't love utah county anymore and so we were lost.  I begged my mom to stay in Hurricane so I could stay with my new friends.  See since moving every 3...